Tuesday, December 3, 2013

Reflective Living {At What Cost}

While I was in Eastern Africa, I spent just a few days at a baby home. While I was there I saw children who had been neglected by their parents. One little baby seemed to have some sort of mental illness, but I learned that she had been physically abused by her mother and thrown against a wall multiple times. Now this little girl is impaired for the rest of her life.

Each little child I held and loved on had a story of their own. Each had a story of various levels of abandonment, or of neglect, or even of abuse.

As I held these children who were at such an important stage of their development, I realized how important proper care for the orphaned really is.

In Africa, many unwanted children are left for dead and thrown away. Some will get thrown into the pit of an outhouse. Other's may be abandoned by their fathers as their mothers die in childbirth. Others will be taken to a family member who cannot adequately provide for them.

I've held a tiny three year old boy in my arms with a body so skinny, his clothes would not stay on him. But his heart is so big, and he is so in need of love. Who knows, if he had not been brought to the baby home, he might not be alive today.

What I experienced in my heart as I held these children broke it even more than it had already been broken. It moved me to realize the importance of Christ-followers living out the Scriptures. In Roman times, the Roman people would leave unwanted babies in the dump or thrown in to the outhouse pits, very much like what happens in Africa today. During that time, Christians were known for rescuing these abandoned children and raising them as their own. Why are we not doing the same?

When Jesus saw the multitudes, the Bible says that He was moved with compassion. Love turned into action. I see these children in my mind whose little hands I have held, and it moves me with compassion.

I am a firm believer that you cannot have compassion for someone and stand idle as they suffer.

Compassion moves you, it changes you, it calls you to action.

I can no longer pretend that I do not know there is a real need. I have seen it with my own eyes. Seen the value of rescuing a human life that is so precious to God. His heart is for the weary, the neglected, the poor, and the needy. What better way to share the love of God than by pulling a person out of neglect and a future full of hopelessness, and giving them a chance to live?

Sounds like a life reflective of Christ and what He and the Father have done for me and you at Calvary. Hmm. . . I would rather have that life than any other.


Wednesday, September 18, 2013

Her Worn Eyes & My Ravaged Heart

First thing on the agenda this morning that I knew of was to visit a sick lady. At breakfast Brenda, the director of Helping Hands, told me that the woman was named Christine and was someone she has known now for many of the years she has been in Uganda. She also told me that Christine has AIDS. When I asked how she got it, Brenda told me that her husband had given it to her, but that he was no longer alive.
While in Africa I have come in contact with people who are HIV positive and possibly even unknowingly in contact with some who have AIDS. But I had never experienced what I did this morning.
We drove down the red African clay roads that are so distinct of the land here in East Africa. We drove until the road became so narrow that we had to get out of the car. As we began to slow down children gathered to watch the white people and shouted, "Mzungu! Mzungu!" which means: white person. It happens everywhere we go, children shouting "mzungu", adults stopping what they are doing to stare.
Christine was staying with her sister because she was not strong enough to care for herself, and as we approched the house i began to take in my surroundings which are very common to this land: mud huts and shacks were everywhere. Naked babies played in the dirt, women sat outside cooking over fires.
The house we came up to was no bigger than the bathroom in the house of my childhood. It was attached like a duplex to another home about the same size. Straw and tarp served as the roof and mud were the walls and floors.
We were welcomed into the home and I had to bend to get through the doorway. Inside was enough room for the five of us to sit down beside the cot on which Christine lay, her body lost under the blanket. This woman's state broke my heart. She was no more than skin and bones and could barely talk. This disease had ravaged her body, she did not have the strength to sit up on her own. She watched us with very tired eyes.
Brenda asked Christine if she had been eating but she said that she had not because her stomach hurt. And because of this she has not been taking her medicine. There is a medicine for HIV positive people that helps to control the disease of AIDS but it must be taken with food.
Brenda pulled a blouse out of her bag that she had brought as a present for Christine. Together the sister and another lady put the shirt on her. As they did this I could see the toll AIDS had taken on her body, so much so that I had to look away.
We encouraged her by speaking the gospel over her and reminding her that heaven was her home. We prayed over this sweet, slowly dying lady.
The scene before my eyes broke my heart.
Before we left Brenda asked if there was anything she could do for her. Her response? Please help my children.
This afternoon Brenda sent me out with a social worker of Helping Hands, a sweet Ugandan woman named Edith. Together Edith and I spent over two hours walking the streets of Busia. Our first stop was Busia's school to meet with one of Christine's children. We sat with Junior, who was in 9th grade, at a table outside the Headmaster's office and asked him some questions about the food they had at home. He told us that they only had a little flour. Out here they use flour to make a mashed potato like substance. It is their staple food and often the only meal they eat during the day. Christine has four children who live in a home maybe fifteen or twenty minutes walking distance from her sister's house.
Edith and I took Junior with us to do some shopping.
We bought petrol, cooking oil, beans, flour, charcoal, sardines, cabbage, tomatoes, a few onions, and soap. Edith told me that the amount of food we had given them would last them about a month. It all cost maybe twenty dollars at most.
The load became too heavy for the three of us to carry so we hired a bicycle taxi to take the heavier items to their home.
They were so grateful for the provision of food.
It was something that Brenda had promised Christine years ago as the disease of AIDS began to intensify: that she would look after her children.
As we had prayed with Christine before leaving her home earlier that day, she was sitting up by resting on the chest of her older sister who looked years younger than her diseased sister. The pain in her eyes was real as she held Christine.

I really have no words for today. I will never get the picture of Christine's tired eyes out of my head. I sit here writing this while listening to a Bethel Live song entitled "Our Father." The song says that it is our heart's cry to see God's will done on earth. I can say with a deep sorrow in my heart that some people have not made it through this whole blog post, others who cannot grasp the reality of poverty and injustice that occurs in so many places of this world unjustly think themselves that I am trying to guilt trip people by the words I have written. But none of it is dramatized. It is so real.
Is our heart's cry really to see God's will be done on the earth? His heart is for the poor, the abandoned, the hurting. There are so many verses in the Bible that show God's heart for the abandoned, the orphaned, the alienated. Jesus himself said that he did not come for the good or the healthy because they have no need for a Physician. He came for the needy, the poor, the broken. If our desire was to see His will done on earth it would not be turning a blind eye to the needy people of this world.

"Speak up for the poor and helpless, and see that they get justice." Proverbs 31:9

Saturday, September 14, 2013

Boda Rides & Car Rides

Yesterday I was in Kampala with the Telman's. The night before we said our goodbyes at the airport to the group who had come, and now we were gearing up to head back to Mbira where the Telman's live and minister.
First thing on the agenda for the day? A boda ride to the store! What is a boda you ask? It's one of the words out here for motorcycle. It is one of the fastest ways of transportation in Uganda, especially in the capital. Where traffic is thick, the bodas weave their way through. They also tend to carry HUGE loads, way bigger than the machine itself. It kind of reminds me of an ant who carries well above their size. That's the way motorcycles are around here.
The Telman's daughter Amanda and I got on the back of one motorcycle and Mr. Telman got on the back of another. Women usually ride the motorcycles here sidesaddle because the majority them wear skirts, so they have a little foot rest just for women. But Amanda and I were both wearing ankle length skirts so it wasn't too hard to ride the motorcycle normally. I wasn't too sure how I felt about riding sidesaddle, seems a bit scary!
The ride was fun though, and pretty cheap. After that, we got all packed up in the car and began the process of heading back west to Mbira. It was a long process because we were also taking the national Pastor's wife from the Telman's church and her newborn baby, Lucas. He was born toward the end of August after some complications which caused him to go without oxygen for an hour. So he's been in the hospital on oxygen ever since. But his mom was VERY ready to get home. The Telman's were able to help that be a possibility. Yesterday we were able to gather the things that he needed to live at home: his own source of oxygen.
When we pulled up to the ministry site here in Mbira, it was close to 11 p.m. But a rush of screaming girls from the orphanage ran screaming to meet us. They were SO excited to see the Pastor's wife again. I began to see then what an impact she and her husband have made and are making in the orphans lives. They live on the property with them. To these girls, she is their mother figure. And they couldn't wait to have her back with them. It was such a sweet moment.
I'm so thankful that she was able to come home with her son. If not for the Telman's help, he might not even be alive right now because of all the extra help he needs. God is good!

Thursday, September 5, 2013

Nurture Baby Home

Today I began my stay at Nurture Baby Home in Masaka, Uganda. Its a home for orphaned and abandoned babies and I'll be here until Sunday!
I've really been looking forward to my time spent here and what I would have a chance to learn. When I arrived the first thing I was able to do was meet the older children who were playing in the front yard. They acted so shy when i first got out of the van! Later that night they did not act that way though! 
After I put my things away I went into the baby room and I was immediately drawn to this one little boy. I ended up holding him for a long time. He is such a sweet little chubby, healthy looking baby with a big smile. Later on, at dinner, I asked one of the girls who works there what had happened to the baby who was malnourished and found tied up under his mother's bed. I had seen a video on the Internet with the founder of this baby home talking about that specific child's past..... I was told that it was the baby I has been loving on for like an hour. He was the one so malnourished, so mistreated. If I say that it hit me hard, that would be an understatement. It genuinely shocked me and made me want to cry. To think that he had been made to suffer that way rocked me. It also made me further realize the importance and need of ministries like Nurture Baby Home.  God has so much love for these children that He found a way for them to have a chance. I believe God is going to do big things in and through the life of that baby I held today. He has a great story already of being rescued and taken into the care of people who genuinely love him now because Christ first loved.
It also doesn't seem coincidental to me that the same baby who's story I had heard months ago was the one I unknowingly was drawn to. It truly touched me in a very real way. 
That's all for now.

Wednesday, September 4, 2013

Killer Storks

Today was my second full day in Uganda!
Finally, I'm over the worst of the jet lag. Its about 8:30pm and I don't feel like crashing. About this time last night I was soooo ready for bed. Time zone change is 7 hours ahead of you all in Eastern time zone.
After lunch today, we began our journey west of the capital. So I got to see a lot of the landscape of Uganda. Its interesting to me how different Uganda looks vs. Tanzania. And they are located so close to each other. Uganda is a country of rolling hills covered with green, tropical looking plants. I actually noticed a reed that grows commonly around here that looks like the plant from the Lorax... they must have come to Africa. The temperatures here are amazing! It hasnt been more than high 70s or low 80s since I've been here... but the sun is so strong!
There is also a stork here that is basically a vulture, they have HUGE bodies and really tall legs and beaks with a wing span of about six feet. They are massive and super creepy looking. I'm hoping I can see one long enough to grab my camera to show you.
This picture was taken along our journey at the Equator line!!
So I got to stand in both the Northern and Southern Hemispheres. Pretty cool!
For the next two weeks I am in a small village called Mbira. The missionaries live in a house on the same property as the orphanage. They have about 80 children! I got to see the kids tonight and tried to say hello, but they were really shy. I am excited to learn  more about the ministry here, and look forward to being able to share more pictures and stories with you!
Bye for now.

Monday, August 26, 2013

6 Days!

It's so hard to believe that in less than one week I will be boarding an airplane headed for Africa. I've been looking forward to this for awhile now and am so thrilled that it is time.
I wanted to make a post to help people visualize where I will be in Africa, and what exactly I will be doing. So I have included a map that I made!
 
My journey begins in America, but when I arrive in Africa I will be flying into Uganda! Then I travel west to that first green star. I will be staying with a missionary family who have a ministry of a children's home. I will be with them for two weeks and really look forward to my time there. Next I travel into the capital of Uganda, Kampala, to meet up with people from the next ministry I will be spending time with... on the other side of Uganda close to the Kenyan border (the purple star). The ministry is called the Village of Eden and is a children's home too! I will be with them for two weeks. Then I will travel back to Kampala for a few days and am hopefully going to be spending time with a Teen Challenge center that just opened up for women! Then I will board a plane once again and travel to Tanzania, Africa where I will spend two weeks. I'm looking forward to this. I traveled to Tanzania, Africa in 2010 and am so excited to see people I met once before! 
This trip is only possible for me because of the goodness of God in my life. He is so faithful and has used so many people and circumstances to encourage me. I'm so grateful for His provision in my life and the support of others. I want to say a big thank you to everyone who gave financially and also to those of you who have been praying for me. I am so excited for this trip and how God will work! I know that He will. Please continue to keep me in your prayers.

Friday, June 14, 2013

Getting Real | Letting Go & Going

When I first learned that I had the chance to go to Uganda, Africa this fall, I began making preparations for the trip. I knew that it would need to be intentional as I planned for future ministry, so I asked the Lord to confirm that this was of Him. I asked Him to show me a passage in the Bible about someone who went somewhere and did something for the Lord. . . Very vague, I know. The very first person that He brought to my mind was Abraham. So I opened up my Bible and flipped through the pages of Genesis until I found the chapter where God first called Abraham out. I found it in Genesis chapter 12. And what God showed me through the reading of those first few verses absolutely amazed me as He connected it with my own life.

Side note: I love that God’s Word is alive. You can read the same verse 50 times and yet after reading it the 51st time, the Holy Spirit connects something unique about it to your life. His love for us as individuals is outstanding.

Genesis 12:1-4 
Now the Lord said to Abram, “Go from your country and your kindred and your father's house to the land that I will show you. And I will make of you a great nation, and I will bless you and make your name great, so that you will be a blessing. I will bless those who bless you, and him who dishonors you I will curse, and in you all the families of the earth shall be blessed.”
So Abram went, as the Lord had told him, and Lot went with him. Abram was seventy-five years old when he departed from Haran.

When God told Abraham that He wanted him to go, God did not say, “Abraham, now listen to me. I want you to pack up everything you own and travel to Egypt, stay there a year. After that year is over, travel into the wilderness and build me an altar and stay there for a few weeks. After that I will show you what I want you to do next.”
That was not what He said at all! God’s word to Abraham was, “Go. . . to the land that I will show you.” Did you catch that? God did not tell Abraham where he was to go! He just said, “Go.”
What a step of faith that must have been. Not only did Abraham have to go, but his whole house: his wife, their servants, everything they owned, including their cattle, went with them.
What is even more amazing to me is the response of Abraham. The Bible does not say that he questioned God or that he had excuses. The Bible just very simply states that Abraham “went.”
What a life of faith, what a HUGE step of faith! It is hard to imagine taking such a step today, so I cannot even begin to imagine making it back then when the world was so unknown. Abraham did not have a cell phone or a GPS. He couldn't call home when he got lost. He did not have Facebook to keep people posted on his progress. It was a decision with some huge challenges and even greater unknowns. Knowing all that faced him, how scary the future might be, makes his step of faith even more amazing to me because he did it without hesitation.
Perhaps that is the reason why God chose him. His life of faith made him one of the few people found in Hebrews 11. 
I want to live a life of faith like Abraham.
I truly believe that Jesus showed me this story at the beginning of my journey to assure me of a few things. I could easily dwell on the unknowns in my future, but He did not call me to a life of worry. He called me to daily cast my worries and concerns upon Him and to follow His leading.
It is a scary thing for me to say I am quitting my job to go on this month long trip.
It is a scary thing to not know where the money will come from when I return. Where will I live?
Some might call it foolishness to leave everything behind. I suppose when Abraham left everything behind to follow God there were many who called him foolish. But great was his reward. He became the Father of the nation of Israel. If he had not listened to the call of God upon his life to go, I’m pretty sure he would not have been so blessed.
I have full confidence, complete faith, and utter assurance in the depths of my soul that God has this all figured out.
When He spoke into my life a few months ago and whispered, “Samantha, its time. It’s time to work on the vision I've put in your heart. It’s time to go back to Africa and do what I have created you for.”
 I answered by saying, “Okay, God. I’ll get ready! Show me where, show me how!” And as the pieces slowly began to come together I rejoiced and keep on rejoicing because I know that the same God who led a very blind Abraham is the very same God who is leading me. I’m not standing on my own two feet, but kneeling before His throne in full surrender.
So there is no way that the thoughts of insecurities over my future can overshadow the confidence God has placed upon my heart. His promises of provision are real in my life.

He is my Provider God after all. 

Thursday, June 6, 2013

The Hastings Family

       I recently drove to St. Augustine to take family portraits of the Hastings family. I felt so privileged when my roommate asked me to do this for them. Family is so important and one thing I noticed right away during this session is that the Hasting's truly love each other. They were gearing up for a vacation and their excitement was evident!

Tuesday, May 14, 2013

Compassion Defined


                Recently I was sharing with some teenage girls what I personally feel the word "Compassion"
really means. I defined it this way: Compassion is empathy moving a person to action, and in doing so it becomes a passion.
                If you look at the word, you cannot have compassion without passion. A person who has compassion isn't someone who sits back and does nothing. No. The Bible says that Jesus was "moved with compassion." And what did He do with that compassion? He began to heal people. Once, He even raised someone from the dead because of compassion! Compassion moved Him to action.
                What a perfect example for us. What a perfect example for my own life and heart. If I know that my sister fell down a flight of stairs and broke her leg, but I sat there and did nothing, where is my compassion? It is nonexistent. It moves us to action. It moves me to be a part of something.
                  God began developing this in me long ago- a compassion for children. Somewhere along the line it developed into a passion that He is using the drive the course of my life. Sometime during my teenage years He began to stir in me a compassion for the orphaned children of this world. And it has never died away. I'm so excited for the chance to live out the compassion of Jesus Christ in the lives of others. To have the opportunity to be His hands, to have a heart that beats like His...
                  And that is why this blog is titled "Compassion." It is part of the character of God, and one He has created me to display to the forsaken and needy.